okeh. i already predict this kind of things would happen to me. hmm. i got 3A+, 3A and 3B+. hahah. yeah i know. spm is not everything.

but if we scored in spm we will have bigger opportunity to continue our studies at a better place. haha. idk what will i do now.

btw. thanks Allah. i know. you save me for the best afterwards. and i trust you. many things had happen to me.

and when each of that things happen, i realize how much you love me that you always gave me what i want. and how many times you try to test me but in the end you still help me to succeed.

each time when you're trying to test me before, i always ask myself why do you keep treating me like you didn't even like me. but when time goes by, i learn that every single things you done to me is just for my own good.

forgives me o Allah. after this, i swear, i'll never thing or talk bad things about you like that again. insyallah. as your slave, i have no right to think like that.

i hope o Allah, that you'll gave me a brighter future than i expected. so that i can support my family and 'deen' someday. aamiin. jane. :)

oh no. oh no. oh no. its coming. its finally coming. for all these years i've been waiting. at last. it nearly come. oh god. i'm so frighten and anxious. what will happen to me if something bad shows up afterward?

who? when? what the hell are you saying about? who's coming?

oh you. what date is today? 17 march right? it almost 21 march. and on 21 march spm results will be officially released, all over Malaysia! and its include my result as well.

oh. chill babe. i'm sure you'll do great.

you said that because you and i are the same person. -.- anyway. yeah. i really felt scared right now. i donno what will be the risk if i get bad result for my spm to achieve my dreams. hmm.

o Allah. i hope you'll accept my prayer. i hope you'll gives me straight A if that is the best for me. aamiin. i trust Allah. if you're a muslim, you should, i mean must too.

i want to be a doctor. an eye specialist. just saying. :) jane

(many people likes my status. i'm not forever alone)

the day i got my driving license from my driving teacher. i show it proudly to my mom saying that at last i got my license.

i told my mom that dad promise me to gives his car to me. his rexton. my mom suddenly keep her words from spilling out. her face shows that she was thinking about something.



"i think you should ask your dad to buy you a 2nd hand car and just sell the rexton if your father didn't want to use it again, dear arief. maybe wira or saga."

"and why is that. you didn't like the fact that i'm gonna use that big car. you worry to much mom"

"not that what i meant. if you use a car like saga or wira, you wouldn't get any problem to get use driving a car. rexton is too big for a beginner driver. and i dont think that you will get ease by driving a car as big as rexton"

"naa. i reject that opinion mom. i have my reason why i accepted that rexton when dad told me that he gonna gave it to me"

"n what is that?"

"its not because i'll drive a big car so i can show off to my friends. it is because dad told me that he want to give his rexton because of some reasons."

"he told me that when i was a child. back then, when we have a Mercedes parked in our porch. i told him that i really like that car because we can open the upper part of the car."

(i dont know how to say it. but it looks like this)

"so he said that rexton can also do the same thing. then he continue his words. he said that its been more than 8 years rexton brought him everywhere to find his source of sustenance. and he really gets a great fortune."

"he said he was hoping if i use rexton, i'll found the same great source of sustenance just like him so i can live my life wealthy and always happy."

"oh okay. suit yourself arief. i was just giving my opinion. :)"

haa. the conclusion is. i really want to use rexton not because i want to show off to everyone that i'm using a big car.

but i want to show them rexton proves that my father loves me, care about me. and the most important is. he always think about me and my future.

thanks dad. even tho you dont know how to show it. i know. you really loves your family. and i really appreciate it dad. truly, from one of your son. jane~

p/s : some of the scene did not really happen

Sabda Nabi S.A.W :

“Janganlah mencabut uban kerana uban adalah cahaya pada hari kiamat nanti. Siapa saja yang beruban dalam Islam walaupun sehelai, maka dengan uban itu akan dicatat baginya satu kebaikan, dengan uban itu akan dihapuskan satu kesalahan, juga dengannya akan ditinggikan satu darjat.”

(HR. Ibnu Hibban dalam Shahihnya)



look at this boy, his name is hitsugaya toshirou and he's one of the character in bleach manga.

even tho he's only a kid, he got a lot of uban on his head and he didn't feel ashamed. he also didn't give a damn if someone condemn about his hair.

if this boy can survive in the world with a lot of uban. why can't us? why do we sebok2 nk cabut uban? haha. jane. :D

currently i dont hv any interest to updating my blog. i dont know why. so dont ask.

but no worries. if i had something to tell or something to write or something that i think i must tell the world, i will post it.

n after that, i will surely inform you guys. even tho i'm not sure whether this place hv a faithful reader or not. haha. thanks for reading my blog. till next time. jane. :)

and oh yeah. it's march already. and this means results will coming up soon ! oh Allah. please make them be great. amin.

3 june 1994, a boy was fated to be born on that day. his beloved parents named him Ariff hoping that someday their son will rule the world with his intelligence and will be skills-full in anything .



10++ years later. his parents wish seems like coming true. many things that arif had been through. laughter, sadness, and enjoyment. he met many person in his life. and saw many girls in his eyes.

when he reach 16, he started to play rugby. and yeah. his parents wish coming true again. even tho he only play it in awhile, he already mastered all the skills to play rugby.

when we play rugby, he always give a try and score. every guy on earth jealous on his talent. and he will reply to them, "sape suruh tak star! wakakkaka"




in high school, many young girls fall in love with him because of his macho-ness. kalah justin bieber. almost everyday, someone will send him a gift.

but only one girl that successfully catch his heart. the one and only. ****. arif will be mad at me if i wrote her name. seriously. nnti dia kate, "delete do".



btw, this is rasyid. he's not gay. but he really likes arep. i don't know why. sorry for the grammar error. jane. :)